...I'd fight Gandhi...

Guess I'm going to go for what I've started out trying...even if the outcome will be somewhat embarrassing...I need this to work.

Did not work. Very sick. Threw up a lot. Can't sit up too long. Dizzy. Haven't tried talking.

I don't do a lot. I go to class, go eat and go back to my dorm and just stay there until the cycle repeats. So taking that into consideration...I have this friend named Bryan. We've gone out to dinner twice and hung out a few times. He likes me but I don't like him (like that)...This is starting to sound kind of juvenile. But I'm getting to the point fast.

So he wanted to know if I was busy Friday so we could go out or something...obviously I'm not busy so I said I wasn't. I told my sister about that and she says I'm leading him on...I don't think I am, I mean I kind of make it obvious I'm not really interested in him (not in a mean way, I just don't sit close or anything). So I'm not sure of what I should do now...I can't bail out on Friday because I really have nothing planned and I don't want to make up some excuse at the last minute (because I can't think of one).

I know next Friday he wants me to go to one of his sister's plays or whatever...That's way ahead I could probably take the time to think of something because I don't want to be leading him on if that's what I'm doing. I really don't know what to do right now I can't just say to him "I'm sorry if it seems like I'm leading you on" or whatever because I'm really bad with confrontations and all of that. I was thinking of maybe slowly making up excuses to ease off of it? I don't know...

 
now I have this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach, I always get that if I think I did something wrong and I just want that to go away....I can't wait until this month is over then I'm out of this state and back in Chicago and I won't have to deal with any kind of drama...