...I'd fight Gandhi...

Yeah... anyway..I was imformed by my aunt that my older cousin bought a bee bee gun (out of no where "oh by the way Ian has a beebee gun") i was thinking "is that a threat?" christ anyway. Nothing really happened at school today I had to turn in my president letter (people wrote "dear, mr. president" mine was just like "Mr. Bush" I didn't even put dear hahah that fucker) and the people in my class wrote a whole paragraph thanking him for his time mine was a five worded sentence "Thank you for your time..." even had the elipsis at then end...and we had to put our home address at the bottom i was all like "no way in a rat's ass am I doing that" he could put a hit on me or something so I made up an addy. anyway I left my lunch ticket at home accidentally so I was hungry all day ( I didn't have supper/dinner the day before or breakfast) Jake was being all cute today I don't know why but he was because he usually is..Damn i'm so fucking pathetic shoot me in the head..anyway...as explained in the blog before this one never going to happen but I'll never stop thinking about him or anything like that. I have to do home work or something so I'm out.

Haven't added a blog in a couple of days..i donno when but i know i haven't. yesterday was friday and everything my stupid sister keeps saying stuff about me to other people...bitch. anyway i finally got a lunch ticket since i haven't had one for the last three weeks..i wish i still brought lunch in a way because the schools lunch sucks. I have to do some type of lyrix analysis in english so I picked the song "stinkfist by Tool" and she said it was too hard and didn't know what the "borderline" was..so I'm just like "uhhh...ok" and she's like "does this song have a sick meaning in it" i'm like "I don't think so...do you want it to?" she just kind of gave me a look that meant "what the fuck do you read/watch/listen to" type of look so I shot her the "i'm a stupid kid look" then that little screen play ended cause the bell rang...which it was 6th hour going into 7th hour which is when i see jake in the hallway and stuff...which i should give up because i don't have a chance...at all. because i'm nasty, a loser, a dumbass, 5'1, a freshmen, and a loser. and he's hot, cute, 6'0 or 5'11, a senior, not a loser i don't know what, and hot. yeah people would think it both gross and pathetic for a freshmen to go out with a senior and vise-versa. but my sister britt met her boyfriend when she was a freshmen and he was a senior and they went to prom and have been going out for years after. which i doubt would ever happen to me cause i'm an idiot...ok done for that session of complaining and truth. uhh..I finished my portrait i only drew it because it looks like this one guy i used to know named euan even though euan has black hair, really blue eyes, and is 6'5 and austrialian but sounds british both have the same last name though.. yeah and here's why me and jake will never happen

Okay... I didn't stay in my room all weekend as I had planned...I stayed in there for atleast 30 mins then had to pee...anyway I was at school today like normally on any weekday except we had a half day and stuff like that so I had shortened periods and for science i have to write a stupid letter to the president which I doubt he'll read but just in case he does I'm going to write mine as negatively as I can :D I haven't had a good lunch at school for atleast 3 weeks now so I just sit there with my friend and wait till it's 10 mins till the bell then we go wait near the C-wing by the pit but not in it. Jake got his hair cut, he looks cute it's all ruffley like he just woke up or something. I have a lot of homework...a packet for science, 1 worksheet and a assignment out of the book in math and I think I have german homework... I'm bored this blog sucks
i'm out

Duct taped the door knob locked so my parents can't come in all weekend then I added the internet to my comp so I would have a sorce of entertainment. it sucks though because I would have to pee sometime...and when it comes time to goto school I have to wake up at like 3 take a shower then take off to the bus stop 4 hours ahead of time...I'll goto a diff bus stop though..mwahhahh...I donno what i'll do when I have to pee..I want to watch tv now but mine isn't hooked up in my room yet...screw easter...I am trying to type softly so I won't be heard so I'm gonna end this as one of my shortest posts

Today sucked.. I had to read a poem in front of my english class well I was all nervous and shaky then some idiot kept interrupting me while I was talking so I finally shut him up by sayind "shut the fuck up you asshole mother fucker I'm going to go to your house at night and kill you in your sleep" well the teacher either heard it and ignored it or didn't hear it at all but the kid sure as hell did and shut up..the douche bag.. anyway.. Jake and his friends were hitting eachother during lunch (it started when one of them hit jake in the back of the head) afterwards they all started laughing (kind of brutal) my cousins are assholes... Ian (my older cousin) flips me and my sister off while we were walking home and then 5 hours later drives by and shouts "Mother fucking dumb bitches" our cousins don't like us we don't like them. see it's common to see why they are underaged drinkers, smokers, popular, and slutty. while me and my sisters are unpopular, don't drink or do drugs or smoke, and we dress normally (no tight pants and low hemmed shirt where when you bend down your shirt goes up and shows your crack) i hate that so I wear regular clothes I don't know how else to describe them. God school has about 5 or i don't know how many weeks left but I no it's a one digit number and then Jake graduates and I won't be able to see him..my life blows... and I got my report card for third quarter (b+,A,A-,A-,C,D-) Thanks to my science teacher i got a D- in science she never shows us are grade at any time in the quarter so we don't know wether to raise it or study or something...I got a c in math doesn't matter though c is average apparently.

Not much happened at school except I got in trouble right when I set foot in the school entrance (some idiot kid was censoring his language so i said sarcastically "you can say fuck anytime!" it was in a hick accent and everything the teacher claimed I said "I can say fuck whenever I want and no one's gonna stop me" seems to me something fishy is going on or they can't repeat what was said 5 seconds ago..dickheads.. anyway Jake was being all cute wearing his Tool sweatshirt (has a wrench in the shape of a penis on the back) i thought that was interesting lol anyway i don't like the new sub for english she's annoying and makes us go in front of the class a lot (I get all nervous and threaten people under my breath in front of the class) i hate oral presentations or whatever...I drew a lot of pixel images (like three..) I stayed up all night sunday because I didn't feel like sleeping so I ended up falling asleep 1st, 3rd, 6th, 7th, 8th, and 9th hour....*cough* but i luckily woke up when the bell rang not like past experiences(spelling?).. my parents keep yelling.annoying...bored..gonna go

I wasn't able to add a blog yesterday because my sister wouldn't get off the comp :evil: well to day is the last day of spring break Yay!! now i have to sit there in science class payig attention, jesus christ i hate science it bores the hell outta me and the teacher is vicious like a prostetic monkey on a rampage....i don't want to think about english class I got a new teacher because the old one was pregnant and went to have her baby now we have a full-time sub that really really hates swearing which i happen to do a lot in that class, 1. because there are assholes in it, 2 because I'm nervous, and 3 because i don't care i have an A in that class anywho just do the homework and pretend to pay attention. I wire my cd player up through my sweat shirt and have those mini head phones on mwahahahah!! i'm lost without my music one time i ran out of batteries during math class and i fell asleep and woke up 30 min into the next class. they had to evacuate the class room to wake me up (i don't know why) then they drug tested me because they thought i was on something (freaking idiots) god i hate the deans...but the I get to see Jake that's probably the only plus in the ending of spring break...life sucks balls

I wasn't on the internet at all yesterday because Lauren (my twin sister) wouldn't get off the computer the entire day... So I was bored all day yesterday my mom made me watch a movie with her "Sylvia" anyway the movie sucked it was worse then "About Schmidt" and "Seabiscuit" I didn't get the point of seabiscuit it was weird I know it was about a horse but that's all i got..so anyway the furnace broke so it's cold and shit..eww it's april fools...Yay spring break is almost over!! I hate it because I don't go anywhere and I miss jake :( damn he's soo cute gahhh I feel stupid so I'm gonna go.